i'm posting a lot more lately on livejournal, so if anyone wants to visit me there, feel free....i'll try to just post in both, but i'm rather lazy....

my id there is also umbrainfreeze.

i'm still reading everyone elses posts too tho!

so i'm sitting here waiting for people to show up and visit me. robin's across the room on her computer, doing her own thing. i'm full from the mcdonalds. i'm tired from all the running around and all the thinking that i've been doing. the knot in my stomach is smaller today, which has enabled me to eat. this is a good thing. my eyes are heavy and part of me just wants to curl up in bed. but there are people on the way. i should be social. its not all that often that I actually see the people that are coming over so that will be nice. i have no idea where all these people are going to sit, but whatever. we're having a shrek2 movie screening. robin and i have seen it. oh people are here, will write more later.

Many of us think back on our lives and wonder what would have happened if we didn’t make that one decision or made it differently, what if. Personally I think that you can never really know what would have happened, or where you would have been today if you had. I think that each decision that we make sets off a ripple of other decisions to be made and a rippling of other things that happen. Sometimes we look back and wish we could make things magically change back to the way they were. Sometimes I wish I could do that, I’m sure we all do. But, the reason they are not the way they were is because they had to get out of the way of something new and better that is coming. Everything happens for a reason, cliché or not I believe it. Fate a tricky concept that I think we do somewhat control. I believe there are multiple paths set for us by whatever cosmic force. It’s up to us to make decisions to make our way down these paths.